Marilyn Monroe’s Diary Unveils Deep Insecurities and Suicidal Thoughts

In a captivating new book set to be released this month, Marilyn Monroe's personal diary entries, poems, and letters that she entrusted to her acting teacher Lee Strasberg will finally see the light of day.

Titled “Fragments,” these writings provide a poignant glimpse into Monroe's troubled mind, shedding light on her feelings of inadequacy, insecurity, and thoughts of suicide.

Despite being an object of desire for countless men, Monroe's internal torment is revealed in an excerpt from her 1955 diary published by the French news magazine Le Nouvel Observateur.

In it, she questions why she feels tortured and inferior to others, describing herself as sub-human and the worst.

Even physically, Monroe always sensed that something was amiss with her.

Following the failure of her marriage to playwright Arthur Miller, Monroe reached out for help in 1958, a plea that is only now reaching readers.

In desperate words, she wrote, “Help, help, help.

I feel life approaching when all I want is to die.”

This cry for assistance reflects the depths of her despair during this tumultuous period.

Monroe also expressed the inner conflict she experienced while playing happy characters, despite feeling empty inside.

In an undated note, she lamented the dissonance between her personal struggles and the roles she portrayed.

She sought a new way to approach her performances, as her entire life had always left her feeling depressed.

How could she convincingly portray a cheerful and hopeful girl when she felt so disconnected from those emotions?

Contrary to her public image as a clueless blond bombshell, Monroe frequently quoted poets John Milton and Sigmund Freud, finding solace in their words.

However, she considered them depressing, perhaps resonating with their exploration of darkness and human suffering.

Monroe's poetry, written during the peak of her fame, delves into themes of loneliness and despair.

In one poignant line, she declares, “How I would like to be dead, absolutely nonexistent.”

These verses provide a window into her innermost thoughts and emotions during this tumultuous period.

By 1961, Monroe's mental state was unravel